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to the Sanguine Sanctum, my personal home on the web! My
name is Rozario (Roz) and I'll be your host! I created
this site so I had a place to freely expess myself
without having to worry about the host randomly caving to
advertiser pressure and censoring my existence as a queer,
up in the late 90s and early 00s, I was absolutely one of
the many people who had a ridiciulous, gif-filled webpage
that talked about my interests and things I liked. I
think I made my first homepage in 1998 or 1999-- yeah, before
Y2K. I can still vividly remember sitting on my
personal computer in 2002 with notepad open and my copy
of the Visual Quickstart Guide to HTML on my desk, coding
out my little websites line by line... Or buidling sites
using Windows Frontpage Express... Sitting in front of an
ancient CRT monitor with a radiation warning that I had
covered in stickers...
remember browsing Geocities and Angelfire, Tripod,
Freeservers and tons of other personal sites, discovering
VtM in my early teens, browsing fandom webrings, reading weird
ass fanfiction and finding the wildest fan theories.
modern internet, in all honesty, feels like it lacks that.
Which exhausts and frustrates the hell out of me. There's
this sort of sameness, everywhere you go on the internet.
We are shoved into boxes wiith a name and an avatar where
we blend into the endless stream of other names and icons.
Our words are the same neutral colored sans serif font on
every social media platform. Individuals blur together
into an endless mob. And I hate it. It feels like every
site on the internet is chasing the same community vibe
I'm not going to just leave social media (I have
people I can only contact that way) I do want to have my
own space. Where I'm more than just black/white sans
serif on a white/black background with only a username
and an icon to set me apart.
you use any of the blinkies or graphics I've made, I'd
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Transness - 06/08/22
Frustrated & Confused
Watching: Cass Eris's Cognitive Psych's
Reaction to "Beyond Order: 12 More Rules"
Listening: The Magnus Archives
Eating: Sour Cream & Cheddar Chips
Drinking: Mtn Dew
Playing: Minecraft Bedrock
Some things that are really
bothering me about transness and queerness that I
am going to try to put into words and see if I
can make any sense of them. There's something
about this idea that I have now seen that in an
"ideal world", trans as an identifier/category
wouldn't exist because we would just be the
gender we transition into... And like, I feel
like that ties the unique experiences of
transness to the oppression of the way gender is
treated in society (plus like, it entirely
ignores nonbinary trans people.
deeply perturbed by like, the idea that transness
as a category is predicated on the oppression
inherent in the cisheteropatriarchy and that
transness would not "exist" in an
"ideal world" because if transness was
seen as a part of the natural variations of
humanity, it would simply go unacknowledged
because the only reason it's acknowledged is
because we're seen as separate from cis men and
women (going with a binary framing here because
the initial idea doesn't acknowledge nonbinary
genders, imo.)? Wow, fuck that was a run-on
sentence. But yeah, anyway I just... I cannot
quite put into words why that makes me feel so
deeply upset and uncomfortable.
whatever reason, my brain has tied this idea to
two other avenues of thought/discussion that I've
run into that bother me:
1) That I
was "always" a boy and had simply been
"misled" by society into believing that
I was a girl.
2) That we must ensure that trans youth
have access to HRT because then they'll "pass"
better and no one will realize they're trans.
on Transness - 07/16/2022
Isn't a Superpower -
With an Extra 25mg of Testosterone - 04/20/2022
Oddly Broken 04/17/2022
08/20/22 - Site has gone on hiatus until
I finish redoing the damned thing.
06/20/2022 - Changing the site layout again.
02/11/2022 - Added "Vampirism"
to the shrine section of "More Links" and wrote
up an essay about why I consider myself a vampire. Also
made a blog post "Karaoke Selfies".
02/10/2022 - Updated my personal blog
("Some Personal Updates"), added MC builds and
Chronicles links to the "gaming" section of
More Links. Did a bunch of tweaking to the index page.
Joined Yesterweb Ring and the Hotline Webring!
pt. 2 -
Changed up the home page.
02/05/2022 - Updated More Links page,
added new stories to Short Stories in writing, changed
character profiles, updated Character Directory, added
"Moodboards" and "Playlists" sections
to "More Links"
01/28/2022 - Finished
changing layout on all pages. Added new "Ruined Date"
to short story section of writing.
Changed site URL from ex-rosa-per-noctem to
rozariosanguinem. Site will no longer use frames. Added
custom cursor and scrolling title. Added new affiliate
buttons for new URL.
12/29/2021 - Continued updating the
12/28/2021 - Changing the site theme/style.
8/25/2021 - Added "Nightingale",
"Revenant", "Siren" and "Stryzga"
bloodline inforrmation pages, more homepage tweaking;
added page "Adam" and "Laurent" to
8/24/2021 - Added "Vampire Mythos
Index", continued tweaking of the home page.